The Long Way Back to Myself
Writing about different stages of my life and experiences, and the slow work of coming home to the parts of me I’d exiled within the systems we live inside.
A longer telling of the way back
This is the most personal strand of my work. It follows the pattern of abandoning myself to stay acceptable, from the stories I inherited long before I could question them to the years I spent building things at speed inside organisations I believed in, and the slow work of finding my way back to the parts of me I’d exiled.
It’s less a recovery story than a seeing one, written from the middle of the journey rather than the end. Each piece draws on a different map, from systems thinking and nervous system science to myth and older ways of knowing, that gave me language for something my body already knew.
I don’t yet know what form it will take. For now it’s a body of writing that runs underneath everything else on this site: my thesis, Remembering Ourselves, the map and the Oracle Deck all grew out of it.
Extracts will be published here as they’re ready, filed under the cards they belong to. If you’d like to read them when they are, join the list below.
Writing you can read now
Letters from the map
New writing as it’s published, news of the deck, and the occasional note on the work.